An old blog post…

I was looking through at an old blogsite I created with Wenz and found this post sitting in the dust.. Read through it, still find it fitting sometimes.. It was written at 10.22pm, on 12 December, 2008. With a title “Mad…ness”, it goes like this :

 

“ Love love love.. it's said to be "the closest thing we have to magic".. everyone is exhausting their whole life, seeking for love, perhaps true love. Some people waited a lifetime, just to catch a glimpse of their other-half soul, yet there's no logic applicable to love, just like there's no logic applicable in blackhole, according to renowned physicist, Stephen Hawkings, if i am not mistaken.. There's no guarantee that how much you gave in to love, will be repay.. And no matter how much you wanted it, it can still be so far away from your grasp.. Yet, man has been drowning in the quest for love, for centuries, tracing back to the first crack of dusk ever known to man.

Love love love, it's a strange and funny thing.. Even you found "the one", you'll sometimes realise, you're not happy after all.. At the very beginning of a relationship, it's starting to suck all your energy and heart to nurture it.. It's a never ending road, one that you'll keep on walking down, hoping it somehow, will end in somewhere you'd imagine a 'happily ever after' would happen.. Like what we believed since childhood, this fairy tales do happen.. but for some, their fairy tale was lost in transaction to reality.. So much for the effort you put in to nurture a beautiful bond between two human beings, huh?

Love love love, it has inspired poets, song writers, story tellers, script editors, and so much more.. On a more regular basis, it inspires us, normal people.. Everyday of our lives, every single moment, we're like puppets, held together by strings of love, so many strands of it that it's controlling our every movement, every thought and soon, it'd become the reason we breathe..

Love love love, it's overrated! How i wish i could say the same.. Love, to me, it's like ocean to fish..it's where it belongs, it's where fish's heart belong, it's what that keeps it alive.. Perhaps, it's shouldn't be so..

Love love love, you're bound to get hurt so bad in love.. some drown in self-created misery, some crushed by the one they love, some is tearing at the sight of their old wound.. Yet, everyone just picks up the pieces and prepared to get hurt and get in love again..
Me?? I'm not okay, i am far away from okay..

Posted by KC, with hurt ”

People must be OUT of their mind to fall IN love …

With love,

KC

First glimpse at the Lakeside campus..

Went for the briefing at the new Lakeside Campus yesterday, it was breathtakingly beautiful. It turns out just exactly like on the brochure. It was huge and oozes with a sense of a study institution. Can’t wait to study there, which would be happening in April next year.

As for yesterday, I was there to attend a briefing for its Open Day, that is happening on 11-13 Dec. Come on and visit if you could, it’ll have a lot of stuff going on, could be fun~

The amphitheatreThe 3 academic blocksA sense of scale of the place, just compare the pillar to a humanIt looks scarily huge under the gloomy clouds..The Multi-Purpose Hall, looking very much like a high school hall..A very interesting geometry shape..pretty, architecturely speaking.. ^^This is how a ‘modern tropical’ campus looks like..A moot court (a mook-up court) for law students..Wonder if real students will go through trials here if they break rules..The University Square, just right next to the lake..looking very much like a chess set.The currently algae-filled lake, but it’ll be clear by the time school opens..can’t wait..A lecture theatre overlooking the billion dollar view..could anyone focus on the lecture with such beautiful view afront??The boardwalkI bet it’ll be very beautiful at sunset here..

The campus is still undergoing construction, but it’ll be completed soon..Can’t wait..

OH WAIT, here’s some pictures taken during the IOI outing with Ave.  Ave, grab the pictures here. Enjoy~

  My favourite shot of the day..A another way to use the camera light..now, you know~ One of my favourite shots of the day~ Ave looks so pretty here..different..

Ave, wish you well.. Don’t get obsess with bla, treat yourself better, you deserves a proper treatment.. ^^

I wish you’d knew…

There are just so many things I wish to tell you, but whenever I tried, I choked up.. So I’ll try to sort it out through my writings.. Don’t worry dear, all I’ll say is not a bad thing, it’s just something that I wish you’d knew, something I couldn’t quite tell you right in front of you..

• that I secretly wish when I woke up every morning, there’ll be am morning message from you waiting, instead of me always being the one who do this.
• that I understand you never liked texting very much.
• that I had wished sometimes that you’ll just text me at some random times throughout the day, just to let me know you’ve been thinking of me.
• that I understand you will always be busy with your works and chores throughout the day and probably don’t have time for that.
• that I wished you’ll understand how much it pains me to feel your absence whenever I go everywhere.
• that how much I wish I was as lucky as you are to be away from so many places that we used to spent time together when we’re apart.
• that sometimes the places are what that keeps me going.
• that I am so envy of you for having so many activities to distracting you from having the time to feel my absence.
• that I am afraid to text with anyone else when we’re apart because I dread the disappointment of seeing the message wasn’t from you.
• that I tried so hard to keep myself busy but failed miserably.
• that I tried not to remember every details that you’ve said or promised because I gets my hopes up every easily for you.
• that I find myself very forgiving towards you when you forget your promises.
• that you can make me cry for hours and end it with just one phone call.
• that I am praying for you to make me stopping writing my diary on blue papers instead of purple.
• that I love how you’ll always solve my problems, let it be computers, gadgets or life, or just simply by being there.
• that I am still puzzled how you’ve blend so well with my dear friends but I liked it.
• that awkwardness hadn’t much crossed my mind when I introduced you to my friends, just a little shy.
• that I smiled whenever my mother mentions your name when you’re away.
• that I sometimes brought you up in my conversation with my mom, laughing at the silly things that you did, because it’s the only way to ease myself.
• that my heart breaks whenever mom asked when you’ll be back, because I can never answer.
• that I didn’t want to ask you when you’ll be back because I know it’ll pressure you.
• that I hate myself for not asking, because it’s an agony to go against all my will by not knowing when will we see each other next time.
• that for some reason, I feel bitter and sad when I saw pictures of you having so much fun with your classmates and members from your club.
• that I know your high school has been such a big and important part of your life, of YOU.
• that I find myself can never fit into that part of your world and it kills me.
• that I know I shouldn’t see more pictures of you in facebook with your classmates, knowing how helplessly sad I’ll be.
• that I still couldn’t resist from seeing them because I really wish to know more about you in that important part of your life, the ‘you’ in high school.
• that I know you’re very protective towards what you have in high school and sometimes you’ve pushed me away.
• that I had a very bad nightmare last time and it chills me to the bone.
• that I know we will always have arguments and obstacles in future, I am scared yet I am excited because I knew we’ll make it through.
• that I wish I can hold your palm now and feel you gripping back.

oh Darling I wish you were here …

With hope,

KC