road trip II

Me and Wenz took the KTM to Sg. Buloh station rather early in the morning to meet up with Shin Yi. Her dad was nice enough to drive us all the way to Kampar just to take a look at UTAR's campus. On our way, we watched a Viva lost control and slammed onto the roadside hill. It was horrifying to imagine the force of impact and we sort of stopped by and helped out. Both the driver and passenger got out safe, maybe with just some minor injury. We continued on with our journey.....

We reached our destination after one and a half hour. The place was so secluded, very nice of a surrounding, especially for studying. Students were riding their bikes to classes and the huge lake was reflecting the blue sky.. Still, i still hasn't make up my mind about where to study yet..Will keep on looking, but make the decision real soon~

After many ooh-ahhs during the campus visit, we crashed to Shu Yi's place. She has a preppy crib, with 4 cute doggies in it. Wish her well in everything.. Then, time for lunch. Where to? How about Ipoh Oldtown, which is 30 minutes drive away? Shin Yi's dad just said yes and there we were, having the famous white coffee and chicken soup noodle.

After lunch, time to head home. ( I bought home half a dozen of egg tarts, yummy much) We stopped by the rest station for a while and we spotted the cute JEEP in the playground. Girls couldn't help but to go candid for a while. Little did I know our hilarious action was watched by passers-by. They'd probably think we're unbelieable.. Anyhow, why care? DOn't care..haha..

The road trip ended at 6pm. End of the exciting day, much left to think about.


[ the sunrise, taken on the KTM.. damn nice,eh? and it has been there everyday, how can we have miss it most of the time?]

[ good morning, sunshine!]

[ on our way to UTAR..]

[UTAR campus.. ohh-ahhs..]

[ ha! ]


[ Shin Yi and Kiki]

[ teddy in cool sunglasses]

[ me and snowpy ]

[ us again ]

[ snowy was biting Wenz's nail.. *wink* ]

[ me and kiki ]

[ and now, snowy was biting my jeans ]

[ the grumpy Teddy.. lol ]


[ Shin Yi's dad was scratching the parking ticket..]

[ want some egg tarts? ]

Going candid in the playground.. note to self, DONT'T do it again!

the one thing that is close to our hearts

I woke up early today, and on the wrong side of the bed. I was in a really grumpy mood through the whole morning, and when my dad mention about going to visit my grandma in noon, it meant one thing. I'll have to compromise my weekend for 3 hours of nothing-to-do. So, I became extra grumpy and if anyone was standing in my way, I swear I'll just snap and only God knows what I'll do to that person.

I have not been feeling well these few days, headache and cold are lethal concoction and they make you extra grumpy, at least me. So, my solution is to silence myself throughout the whole way to my grandma's place. It's suprising how seeming and being can be so different, I might seem idle at the time, but my mind was going into overdrive. There's something missing here, and I am feeling the consequences. So, yes, I AM having a lousy day.

I walked into the old folks home where my grandma stays, going pass a security guard who was sitting there, half asleep. I'll skip to the part where I can finally leave. My dad went up to the security guard to pass him a mandarin orange and they started to chat for a while. Through my congested thoughts, I overheard their talk. The security guard seem a little past his seventies, and he is an Indian. Th sparkle in his eyes caught my attention and now I notice they were talking about his young days. He was in British army for 9 years before becoming a postman for another 25 years. He even acted out the salute, in which his feet thumps the floor with such professional gesture, like he's been doing it his whole life. He keeps on talking about his days in the army and the sparkle in his eyes became more brilliant, so brilliant until it made the wrinkles on his face fade in its brilliance.. I can imagine how his younger days were like. The loneliness and sorrow when I first saw him were gone, replaced by pride and glory. His wife have been fighting diabetes for quite a while but he's optimism was what that kept him going, i guess. Right before we left, he said "it's life, take it easy"..

[ sometimes, it IS life, that's why we take it so seriously, until it makes our everyday so hard to live by.. maybe he was right, we should just take it a little easier, things will fall into places, it just need some time.. ]

That short talking lead me to another morning session with a uncle. He sometimes would join me and my dad for breakfast. That morning, we were talking about natural phenomenan and he told us he had his own accountance. He said it was his eldest son. I was totally taken aback. I didn't know he had lost one of his children but I didn't let my thought show. I listened on... He said something fell while he was out, and the fallen item were far too brittle to be able to withstand the fall. One of which was a toy car. Subconciously, I was thinking about a million reasons why did it happen but then, I saw hope in his eyes. Of course he does, losing someone was never easy to cope with. So, human find every little occurence that could prove the presence of soul or even ghost of their loved ones to hang on to, just to make the grieving a little easier. There was no reason for me to burst his hope by trying to explain the unexplainable. So, I listened on... He kept on repeating the fact that those fallen items never could have withstand the force of the fall and that it must be his son showing him that he was back. The uncle was reinforcing his belief by repeating it over and I can see, once again, sparkle in his eyes.

[ i guess in our lives, there will always be something that clings close to your heart, and that whenever you mention about it, your eyes sparkle, you cheek blushes and you grin.. maybe the one thing might change as you move on to different phases of life, but at any point of life, there WILL be that something special. ]

As for me, for now, I finally can point a finger at what has been missing from me, it's him. I have been missing him and not having the one thing close to your heart around, that is what that made you lost.

I went by routes that we used to go by together and memories went gushing in. At one point, I was overwhelmed by those memories. All those familiar places and my helpless desperation to go back to the past transfer me to another place, another time. Time when those memories were taking place.

I become suddenly so expressive and unfearful to let out my feeling..Probably it was the effect of a novel I've been reading. Life is short, it's too short to keep on waiting and too little to take it so seriously. It's time to do what you want, say what you think.. Who knows, maybe I'll be gone at the least expected timing.

- Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift, that's why they call it present - "Kung Fu Panda"

Seize the moment, tell the one you like you like her.


[ the place where he'll pass by whenever he's here.. it grasp my heart tight whenever I was anywhere around it without him by my side ]

PS : these are the wooden clips and my very-messy workstation

Same girl

This night, my internet connection is fuzzy as usual. I used to tolerate with it, but not this night. I've been feeling such a mess since the evening until I've finally let my temper gets the better of me. I was mad at nothing, and everything.

My headache only adds to the bad mood, and I can't even bring myself to wish him a heartful goodnight when he said he needs to get offline and sleep. I was mad, at myself, for being so demanding sometime. I'd wish he would pay more attention to me when we're talking, i'd wish he would not let our conversation run cold..There are so many things I wish you'd know, but I understand it all are not a big deal, and I shouldn't make a big deal out of it. I guess I just need time to learn to adapt to him, to his way of everything.

I can't sleep, even though he'd told me to get some rest early. So, there I was, curled up in a ball downstairs, watching TV in the middle of the night. I was flicking through channels when I finally settled for a music playlist. It was of all R&B and just what I needed. I was thinking about things that had happened today and how I'd be handling my own emotion. I was wishing he would be here, just to company me through my thoughts, but he isn't and it's just impossible. Then, suddenly, there's one song playing.."Same girl" by R. Kelly, it has something special to it. It reminded me of him, and having it playing in this wee hour of the night felt so comforting, almost felt like he's here.

Just blogging to try making the discomfort fade away. I'm feeling better now, probably it's time for bed finally. Goodnight.

With confusion,
KC

road trip

SO, the story goes like this. Me and Wenz set out to check out a few colleges today and somehow, Shin Yi tags along too. So, the threesome went to The One Academy, Sunway and Taylor's. I'll skip the part where we spent time for counselling and go to the after-activities. After some mind-opening counselling, we had dinner at Chandelier and out of the blue, Wenz suggested we go up to Temple Tian Hou, which was just around the corner from Chandelier Restaurant.

My old car was having some hard time charging up the hill of Temple Tian Hou, but anyhow, we reached the top safe and sound. The place was decorated with red lanterns and it was breath-takingly beautiful. Only now I noticed how beautiful this temple is, funny I never know that during my visits there in my childhood.

After much looking round, the day ended when I dropped Shin Yi at the KTM station. However, I felt sorry for not paying the RM3 during entrance..It was not much but it's a donation anyhow. So, note to self, pay the RM3 next time I visit.


[ the swanky Chandelier ]

[ the fresh-out-of-oven pizza]

[ the yummy mushroom topping.. *drooling*]










[ Shin Yi got busted when she tried to stand in front of the fan under in the burning evening ]

[ look look! there's a spider..]

jarful of randomness

Q: What it's like to be missing someone?
A: 1) you fill your mind with that person every second of the day
2) you try to relate everything you see, hear, smell and touch to that someone, like how a passer-by look so much alike to him
3) you'll wear at least one accesories that has a special meaning between you and him, just to make his absence more bearable
4) you try to relive the times you'd spent with him, knowing full well that it'll get you nowhere
5) you are constantly smiling to yourself, when one of his silly jokes or gestures pops into your mind
6) your heart is suffocated by the feeling of missing him, but if it's the only way to stay connected to him, you'd rather be drowning in this misery anyway
7) every song that you hear reminds you of him
8) every activities that you plan on doing, you'd wish he was doing it alongside with you
9) you constantly stare at your phone, hoping every blink of the screen brings you a text message from him
10) you despise the saying " absence makes hearts grow fonder", because you know it's not true
11) you get mad at yourself for forgetting little things that he'd said or done

Q: When is the last time you'd been to Secret Recipe and tried on a new flavour of cake?
A: Never? Well, it's probably time to ditch the same old Chocolate Banana and try something else. Life is too short to just stick to the same old routine. Take time to look though the choices of cakes available instead of ordering the same flavour of cake straight away without looking into the menu. Who knows, maybe you'll find a new love?

Q: Have you ever divide your life into perspectives?
A: Do you take 'traveling around in a car' for granted? If you would put your point of view into a motorcyclist's, you'll find there's an entirely different world out there. If it rains, as a motorist, the first thing in mind is to look for a bridge so you could stay under, trying to shield yourself from the wetness. Same goes for everything else, it's cliche, but try looking things from another perspective, you'll discover a whole new world.

Q: Do you know how refreshing it is to be impulsive sometimes?
A: How many little things on your to-do list that has been staying there for years yet you never seem to get it done, like calling up an old friend, reading a novel that you once dying to read or doing spring cleaning? Most of the time, you give excuses to yourself just to ignore those little things in life. But it's time to step up and just do it. Go show up at your friend's doorstep and go out for a drink, head to a bookshop and buy that novel or just dig out the broom and start wiping away the dust. Life is too short to keep on waiting!

With love,
KC